I don't think when I said the word, "Yes" did my mind ever really comprehend the happiness, joy, frustration, anger and spontaneity my life would soon become. recently as I have been finishing my last 4 months of nursing school (praise the Lord) and Adam is continuing to intern; have I realized what dependence I have on the LORD. I cannot tell you how many times I have felt like I am going in circles when it comes to figuring out full time jobs and location. I cannot also tell you how many times I have tried to figure out where I am even going to live. Now, I am not talking and apt, or condo or house I am talking country, state, city.....any of those would be nice. Please don't freak out just yet Adam and I would love to stay in Oregon but honestly who knows what will happen.
You know I would love it if their were somethings we just knew, or their were just some things in life we were guaranteed like great jobs! but then I stop to think about how I would not be the person I am today if it wasn't for the unknown. Even thinking about how many things I would have hindered myself from doing if I had already known the outcome. I feel like its a lose, lose situation you wither know your future and hinder yourself from the unknown or you don't know and find yourself completely broken trying to figure it out.
In the next four months I will be going through some of the biggest changes in my life, graduating college, becoming a RN, becoming a wife and becoming a future pastors wife. Please do not get me wrong I am probably the happiest girl in the world to be getting married but it did not hit me until the other day when someone said, " Wow, lace it's like you have the biggest storm ahead of you and you don't even know it!" I don't know...it just hit me!
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you are lucky to have found Adam so early on in your life.. you do have a lot in front of you but you will look back in five years and be glad you had such a great friend/partner to hold your hand through all the new changes you are about to face.. you guys will be GREAT!!
If you need any help with anything let me know as I would love to be able to help in any way I can. So excited for your big day and can't wait to celebrate with you!
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